‘I was going to die young’: Demi Lovato Says…talks history with substance abuse, bipolar disorder and bulimia
She is one of Hollywood’s most outspoken celebrities, especially when it comes to her personal struggles. And Demi Lovato did not hold back as she revisited her past demons in an interview in the July issue of American Way magazine for American Airlines.
The pop star discussed her eating disorder – which began at toddler age- and revealed that although it’s been over four years since her visit to rehab, she continues to attends AA meetings to stay on track. ‘I was going to die young,’ she said.
Demi’s mother and former Dallas Cowboys cheerleader Dianna Lee Hart, struggled with an eating disorder after calling things off with the singer’s father when she was just a year-and-a-half, the late Patrick Lovato.
‘Even though I was two or three years old, being around somebody who was 80 pounds and had an active eating disorder … it’s hard not to grow up like that.’ She began competing in beauty pageants at age seven.
‘My body-image awareness started way before that. But I do attribute a little of my insecurities to being onstage and judged for my beauty.’
‘When I was gaining weight because I was becoming a woman, I would look at those images [on her bedroom wall] and say to myself, “Wait, this is not what I look like. I’m getting fat on the hips and on my butt.”‘ Fast forward to her pre-teen years.
At age nine, she would binge eat, and then in the years to come would throw up her food and cut herself.
It was around this time that she found her place in the limelight as the star of Disney’s Camp Rock and Sonny With a Chance.
Following her parents split as a baby, she grew to know her stepdad, Eddie De La Garza, as her father. Her relationship with dad Patrick was strained, as he suffered his own battle with substance abuse and bipolar disorder.
During the early stages of her teenage years, she began to make a steady, hefty income. Her actions would start to spiral out of control. Her mother tried to take a hold of her daughter, but would get extreme push-back from her daughter.
I’d say, “What are you going to do? I pay the bills!”‘ ‘I put my parents in an uncomfortable position. There’s no manual on how to parent a pop star,’ she admitted.
After her relationship with her Camp Rock co-star Joe Jonas came to an end, the singer joined him and his brother’s on tour, and made headlines when she punched a backup dancer in the face.
Following the attack, she began to seek help, first apologizing to her mother, then entering a rehab center. She was diagnosed with bipolar disorder like her father, and battled bulimia like her mother.